A little over a week ago, I had the pleasure of being live on the Msquared Concepts show to share a little about my book and my journey. I cannot tell you how excited I was. I knew this day was coming. Also, you couldn’t convince me that I wasn’t prepared. I got the email from the team reiterating the time I would be on live. I went through the prep call to ensure I could be heard when the show aired. I already had a few weeks to get myself situated, but wouldn’t you know it, the day of the show my soul tried to go into hiding.
I had to leave work early because my mind was running a marathon while my body sat at my desk attempting to look productive. I had no idea what came over me. I should not have been that nervous. This was not going to be the first time I talked about my book or my journey. This was not even going to be my first time on television.
I needed to take a moment to find my Zen. When I arrived home, I changed clothes to get more comfortable. I finally ate my lunch, because with my emotions running all over the place I forgot to eat. Afterward, I sat on the edge of the bed and just took a few minutes to breathe. It still amazes me how taking deep breaths and exhaling slowly can release stress and clear your mind.
I said a quick prayer and then fell asleep. After a few hours, I awakened with a deep sense of peace and calmness. I knew this moment of peace. It was familiar territory and I was grateful for this time. It was then that I realized I was in a moment of rebirth to become my greater self. It was now clear to me why I was going through so much anxiety. Birth pangs are never comfortable or easy. I was in the mist of being rebirthed. No woman birthing a child is ever comfortable. My emotions were running rampart because I was about to birth my book and my journey to a new level.
This was in the middle of walking through that process and I just had to take a minute to be patient with me. Yep, be patient with me. The happiness that filled my soul caused me to jump to my feet and do a happy dance. I turned on the radio and the song that came forth was just what I needed to hear.
I heard the song before, but tonight it took on a whole new meaning. Tasha Cobbs Leonard’s “I'm Getting Ready” registered with every fiber in my being. I was stepping into a new trajectory. This was one of the moments that I knew my words had reaffirmed what I wanted to exist. My book started out as an outline. Initially, I wasn’t going to write a book, but I did want to share with women I saw walking through my journey a path to get to a better place.
I have always been the type of person to want to help others get better. I share the lessons that I learned so that I can have a positive effect on the people I encounter and to inspire, motivate, and create lasting change in everyone I meet.
It was my desire to make a greater impact on those around me led me to write my book. With this fresh on my mind moments before going live on TV, I realized a key element that never fully registered in my soul before. My book was not just a book, it was the container that held my ideas. It was my journey birthed into fruition.
With this fresh revelation, I turned Tasha Cobbs Leonard’s song off. I had been rerunning it on YouTube for about a half hour at that point. I was ready for overflow and I thanked God for this opportunity as I said “hello” live on Comcast with the Msquared Concepts show.